I don’t know if I will have a “MMM” every week, but this morning, I did.
I debated sharing this and then realized that this site is just for that, to share, and it will not always be the good. I look forward to hearing your thoughts or even words of encouragement.
I drove my son to the bus stop this morning, we normally walk, but it was cold and I was headed out afterwards.
He got out, with his ice pop, because all kids have an ice pop in 30 degree weather. He had a big smile on his face, he was loving the cold air, he was swinging his lunch box around and going in circles. He was laughing, as he does frequently, at what, we do not know.
I looked around, and many of the kids were staring at him, they were looks of confusion, like ” what are you doing?” I immediately felt protective and wanted to get out, tell him to stop and tell the kids to stop staring. I didn’t do any of that. I took a deep breath, held my breath and wished I could just make it all better or even go away. I realized my son may always do things that draw attention and there will be times to choose to intervene, other times, I may not. The kids were not being cruel with words, and although I could have offered some words to help them understand, I did not want to. I just wanted to be invisible.
My son did not know they were looking, he tends to be unaware of his surroundings many times, a blessing and a curse in my opinion.
This left me feeling blue today.